hit the floor

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me. Wondering what I think of you, and I protect you out of courtesy. Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away. Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say. Too many things you’ve said about me when I’m not around. You think having the upper hand means you’ve got to keep putting me down. But I’ve had too may stand-offs with you, it’s about as much as I can stand. Just wait until the upper hand is MINE.

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies. So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside. So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long. All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on. There are so many things you say that make me feel like you’ve crossed the line. What goes up will surely fall, and I’m counting down the time. Coz I’ve had so many stand-offs with you, it’s about as much as I can stand. Just wait until the upper hand is MINE.

ONE MINUTE YOU’RE ON TOP. THE NEXT YOU’RE NOT, WATCH IT DROP. MAKING YOUR HEART STOP. JUST BEFORE YOU HIT THE FLOOR. ONE MINUTE YOU’RE ON TOP. THE NEXT YOU’RE NOT, MISSED YOUR SHOT. MAKING YOUR HEART STOP. YOU THINK YOU WON…AND THEN IT’S ALL GONE...

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say. You know your lies would divide us but you lied anyway. And all the lies have got you floating up above us all. BUT WHAT GOES UP HAS GOT TO FALL.

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handfull of anger, held in my chest. Uphill struggle. Blood, sweat and tears. Nothing to gain. Everything to fear.

Something has been taken from deep inside of me. A secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see. Wounds so deep, they never show, they never go away. Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they’ve played. IF I COULD CHANGE I WOULD, I WOULD. TAKE BACK THE PAIN, I WOULD. RETRACE EVERY WRONG MOVE THAT I MADE, I WOULD. IF I COULD STAND UP AND TAKE THE BLAME, I WOULD. IF I COULD TAKE ALL THE SHAME TO THE GRAVE, I WOULD.
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past. Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have. Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back. And never moving forward so there would never be a past… Just washing it aside. All of the helplessness inside. Pretending I don’t fell misplaced is so much simpler than change…
It’s easier to run. Replacing this pain with something numb. It’s so much easier to go, than face all this pain here all alone.
IF I COULD CHANGE I WOULD, I WOULD. TAKE BACK THE PAIN, I WOULD. RETRACE EVERY WRONG MOVE THAT I MADE, I WOULD. IF I COULD STAND UP AND TAKE THE BLAME, I WOULD. I WOULD TAKE ALL THE SHAME…TO THE GRAVE.

LINKIN PARK Meteora Tour Concert 2004